Free Prayer

This was originally an email, but after two drafts it turned more into a blog post. Let's see! Thank you Josh for giving me feedback and helping me edit one of my many ideas! =]

I feel led to share some blessings from our prayer meetings, that hopefully will encourage you guys.

To be honest, for me it's very easy to have a self-serving heart. Sometimes when I come to prayer meetings I just want people to listen to me. I appreciate the attention and it really helps to have someone to talk to and get stuff off my chest. Then it's no longer "my fault" that I didn't tell people what I have been struggling.

But that was my attitude before. What God has been teaching me is that true fellowship is precious. And a lot of time we don't do it right. I am so thankful for God turning my heart around to see prayer meetings as a social obligation to a huge blessing. Prayer meeting is about being real and honest. It's about admitting that we need God's grace. That we are sinners and that nothing we can do can save ourselves. I am super thankful that God has given me you guys as friends to help me lift me out and to support me with prayer. I have no doubt that the reason I am doing so well is that God is listening to your prayers. I admit its easy to have a "great" Christian walk where I am doing "fine" or "very good" and to go around hiding my burdens in my heart, that I was never meant to carry alone.

The reason I share this is because I see a lot of Christians who are active and serving and they're usually some who do the most, yet they struggle so much on their own. They're not using the resources God gave them, friends and the church. I'm not trying to point fingers at specific people. I am one of them too and in fact last night I fell back into the habit of thinking this way. It's hard to remember God and His promises, when the Enemy is feeding you half truths. And its even harder when you are trying to fight them on your own. So please stop hurting yourself, and allow each other to help you.

If you're doing well, Yay Jesus! I am so happy for you! I encourage you that not everyone is doing well. It's just a fact of life. And it's YOUR job not THEIRS. To seek them and help them. Don't get comfortable with how things are but use discernment and listen to the holy spirit and encourage people! It's better to over encourage than to never encourage at all. Sometimes people just need a friend or an ear to hear them and an unjudging heart. They don't need advice but just a shoulder to lean on and God has given us all two shoulders.

Some lies or rather half truths that I like to believe in from time to time:

Everyone is doing well, I'm the only one who is struggling.

All I need is God, I don't need people.

I shouldn't rely on people.

If I share my problems people will judge me.

No one wants to listen to me.

No one loves me.

I have no friends.

People just love themselves.

Sharing my problems will just discourage people.

No one understands me.

I am better off on my own.


I speak to you in full confidence my friends, that each and every point above is a LIE. Or rather they are all true, but only HALF true. Satan likes to make his lies seductive thats why we fall victim to it. Only by the grace of God are we able to point out lies in our lives and confront them. I would love to tell you how to counter each of the lies above, but I think it would be good for you to wrestle with them in Scripture. Each of the statements are missing something about God, usually about His grace and His love, that changes those statements from despair to hope. But I would love to talk about anything you struggle with, especially over food! I like ice cream!

I don't mean to rant or to preach my friends. My heart grieves to see so many Christians across America who either have lukewarm self-serving hearts. And those who are struggling so hard on their own when God is trying to love them through the people around them. It's not about our pride. Not everything has to be 'fine' or sunshine and daisies but we need to lay down our burdens before Jesus before He can heal us. By having "secrets" or holding on to our own struggles, they chain us and weigh us down. We need to realize that it is only by the grace of God we can be healed. We need to let go of our burdens and allow others to carry it. Do not let the sun go down on your anger. Do not let Satan get a foothold. We need to take off our masks, i know its scary. But trust me when you do, God sets you free.

You might be afraid of insults, or hurts, or judging, but my whole life is laid out in this blog. Anything you want to know I want to share it with you. Why? Because I am not afraid. I am afraid by nature, but I trust in God. I know that He is protecting me and that nothing can harm me. I am fully surrendered! I fight against lies daily, I struggle with sin constantly. My mind is a pitfall trap of lies. I am ugly. But I still know that my God loves me and is making me a little bit more beautiful each day in His time. He loves me too much to let me screw myself up. He'll gently rebuke me if I go down the wrong path. Take it slow you don't have to dive in. But stop hiding in yourself, and surrender it to God. God opposes the proud but gives grace to the humble. Holding on to your struggles is just another form of Asian pride. You may say I don't want to get hurt. Or say I don't want to burden others. But really you're not giving others an opportunity to help you.

Okay I'm done. I'm sorry, but life is serious, and sin is serious. But God is seriously going to help change your life! The following is an excerpt from the original email. It was meant to encourage and bring a smile to your face. xD

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What's Free Prayer?
Free Prayer is a group of real people with real problems with a real God loves us. He is our king, and friend, our Great Redeemer. He has set us free from our chains and given us brothers and sisters to support us! Is everyday a struggle? You're not alone. Come with a heart expecting God to bless you through brothers and sisters, and a heart ready to bless others by sharing some struggles and/or praises. Free Prayer is about being real. Real Christians who don't wear masks, but instead cry out for grace, because we know we need it and that we have a merciful God who hears us. Free prayer is for everyone, because everyone could use an extra blessing. And best of all it's free!


"Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.

Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and your soul will delight in the richest of fare."
- Isaiah 55:1-2