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I'm trying to pay attention...I really am. And yet I can't seem to. Fancy poems and their heroic fancies just can't seem to penetrate my mind. I can't get it out of my head. I thought everything was good to go for the most part. So many sacrifices I would have to make for this decision, but I was finally ready to make all of them. And now another roadblock. What the heck is going on? Do you really not want me to do this God? I thought I was doing the right thing, but really I have no idea anymore. It hurts so bad, my head. Feels like it's going to explode...why is it so ridiculously hard to say yes...and why is it even harder to say no...