phlippians 4:6-7

There's a lot of things I want to say. A lot of things I could say, but in the end I don't know what to say. Just please pray for me, for my family...

...for relationships, for future ministry opportunities, for career decisions, for academic decisions, for peace and trust.

What love is...

Love is...

...finding the strength to wake up after less than five hours of sleep...finding a door that should have been locked unlocked...finding myself still not sick after spending time with everyone else who is sick...coming home to encouraging sisters...reading a text that i've longed to hear...hearing His voice...having lunch made for me...receiving a delicious cookie...a gchat chat room???...being touched...candy!...enfant banana flavored milk from my wonderful roommate...healing a broken relationship...constant encouragement...this blog...ling help...free dinner...the prayer of righteous men and women...friends that believe...peace...

love is...all i'm living for.

What I'm Thankful For...

Since someone challenged me to list them all out...here goes, in no particular order...

I'm thankful for:

english haha. even after switching majors I never really could say I truly loved it. until now. God is good, his presence is all the affirmation I need.

these past forty days (actually 38 days so far) I know the journey's not over yet, even after the 40 days are up, it'll still continue, but God has been so faithful. every single day has become meaningful. Both pain and joy have become blessings. I just can't really express how many times he's reminded of everything i've learned ever since starting college. In some ways these 40 days have become perhaps a culmination of all the things I can thank God for. Every lesson learned, every tear I shed, every throb of my heart...it was worth it, cause He is faithful.

my church kids. hahh. there's too much to say. let's just put it this way. I call them kids not because of age or maturity, but affection.

my bed.

friends. especially you guys...

joyce. there is quite possibly no one else who knows my weaknesses and my failures as much as you do and yet you still love me, constantly and unswervingly. Thus, I thank God for you everyday, because if your love for me isn't the closest thing to a picture of God's love than I don't know what is. it's just, as simple as that.

matt. you are quite possibly the most passionate person I know. it's admirable and inspirational and I can't thank you enough for constantly pushing those around you towards growth. It was that constant curiosity and drive that pushed me towards God my freshman year. Whether you acknowledge it or not, I owe much of my initial and continued growth to your encouragement and friendship. no matter how much we talk, you are and always will be, one of my closest friends.

josh. haha oh josh. you're always the one that looks out for me whether it's just small or big things. your constant encouragement and cheerfulness have helped more than you can know. When no one else seems to care you always do. Your caring and constant presence have time and time again brought calm to the chaos and significance to what otherwise might have been overlooked. Thank you for always bringing a smile to my face.

and lastly my family. cause i'm insane and they don't seem to care.

it's thanksgiving!

"give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus."
- 1 thessalonians 5:18

so what am i thankful for?
- being at UCLA and the people that God's put in my life
- his grace, forgiveness, and mercy + his death on the cross for our sins
- break from school and sleeping in =]
- food, home-cooking
- CS lateness submission...for a project i still need to finish

and more....

"rejoice in the Lord always. i will say it again: rejoice!" - philippians 4:4

idea

lets have a prayer meeting :]

Blue Skies

Time-out for you bad kid! The sight of the sky hit me like a bolt of thunder and suddenly the pain seemed to fade and all was okay.

Back to class. I get a text. It seems the roadblock has been cleared off. The lights are green again. I don't really get it, but okay. God is being funny I guess.

Exploud

I'm trying to pay attention...I really am. And yet I can't seem to. Fancy poems and their heroic fancies just can't seem to penetrate my mind. I can't get it out of my head. I thought everything was good to go for the most part. So many sacrifices I would have to make for this decision, but I was finally ready to make all of them. And now another roadblock. What the heck is going on? Do you really not want me to do this God? I thought I was doing the right thing, but really I have no idea anymore. It hurts so bad, my head. Feels like it's going to explode...why is it so ridiculously hard to say yes...and why is it even harder to say no...

Corban

Corban (that is, a gift devoted to God) Mark 7:11

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anyway, you guys are some of the biggest gifts he's given me. =]

thanks for everything.(<--you have no idea how much i mean that)