Dear Friends,
I love you from the bottom of my heart. And I know you guys love me to. To be honest I've been dreaming of this blog post for over a month, but somehow each time I attempt to write it, I always hesitate.
In all, this summer has been super challenging. As in a wave of emotions constantly plaguing my mind and attempting to devour me. Sometimes I fight, sometimes I ignore them, but they're always there constantly reminding me of how worthless I am. Or how much people hate me.
In all I would love to have a personal conversation with each of you who would like to partner with me and helping build each other up. Or basically. I want you to be my friend, and I want to be yours. It's that simple. So let's talk.
I don't need an answer, or religion, or a solution to my problems. I need a encourager and reminder to turn towards God and someone to remind me that I am actually worth something, that I am actually accomplishing something, and that I can do it. It's like that song "These Simple Truths."
To be honest I'm pretty bad at initiating, and I always struggle with self-confidence. I can never tell when someone is actually interested in me or if they are just being polite. Usually it's a mix of both but I personally hate trying to read people and see if they're really ready to commit to me, or if they're just flakey.
So sorry for the long post. You've been warned, and hopefully this can turn into a conversation starter. I am looking for friends. Will you be mine? Can I be yours?
Your brother,
Matt
